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Behind the reason WHY????

Assalamualaikum,

                Di hari yang mulia ini,kita mulakan hari kita dengan bismillah.This is because by reciting the word bismillah during the early morning, it can enhance someone's day with a nice and breezy day..I'll promised you that ^_^.

               So as for today, ainul nak kongsi the feeling of losing someone who had colored up your life for about 21 years of life(my life). Maybe some of you face this kind of feeling of losing someone that you very much care and love about such as your family members,your friends ,your partners and more. And you must be wondering why does this happen to me? Why am I being test by Allah? Why the person that is so close to me?

               Well as for me, tahun ini adalah tahun yang ainul sedih sekali....The reason behind my sadness is I've lost one of the man that I love dearly and he had been my backbone since I was young little girl till my 21 years of life which was my grandfather from my father's side "AKI ". Since his death which happen on 10 October 2012, I turned from being a girl which gives smiles easily to people, giggly and sometimes talkative to certain people, turned on becoming a more quiet, unfriendly I guess towards certain people.My apologies to my family members and friends which been offended by my attitudes or action.

               Do you know what does it felt losing someone you cared and love?Till this day, I felt the loneliness of losing someone..you know why? Usually on Thursday after I've finished my Introduction to Fiqh class, I will the happiest person on earth cause I'm about to meet my family back home although I lived in Petaling Jaya, by living in my current location (Gombak).....I still miss them(mcm tinggal kat Kelantan nun jauh sana je).The first person that ainul nak sangat2 jumpa is my Aki...because he will the happiest person to see me in front of the door (Ya Allah, I miss those moments).....And now,the wheels had turned in other direction...
Sometimes ainul rasa macam tak sabar nak balik rumah nak jumpa Aki but after realizing in front of the door of my house, I realize that I will be walking straight up to Aki's room to go and see him but he is nowhere around.Instantly I realize that he had left me hangin on my own to feet( I'm thankful that my family members and friends is always there for me but without my Aki by my side, I felt the emptiness in my heart..And that time I will tend to question why does Allah took my grandfather away from so fast?Why not me instead of him? Then I come to my senses on the reason why do Allah take away my Aki away from me...Allah tidak akan membebankan hambanya sekira hambanya tidak mempunyai  kekuatan untuk menghadapi cabaran yang diberi. ...Allah telah mengambil roh Aki dan mengembalikan Aki kepadaNya adalah untuk menghilangkan segala penderitaan yang Aki hadapi.....

Ya Allah, terima kasih mengurniakan seorang hambaMu yang sangat aku kagumi sifat-sifat nya penyayang,family man, peacemaker, tegas,cekal, great supporter, and never differentiated his loved between his family members...I still remember when he is still with us back then, Aki selalu ajak ainul berbual about the future life that I will be facing later....Aki ada cakap, Aki berharap that I will take a good care of my family and he once said that he will like to see me graduate,work and also getting married to the one person who will love me altogether with my flaws and more....Yang paling lawak sekali , Aki pernah tanye ainul where is my husband and the two kids...I'm shocked at first but I presume it as a joke which I then later told him the truth that i'm not yet married to anyone and having kids...He later said, In sha Allah, you will discover your true prince charming same as in the storybooks....Aminnn...I hope so In Sha Allah......
To my future husband, I hope u will accept my flaws cause I'm just a normal human being....I hope you will take a good care of yourself and your family which than transmit on taking a good care of our family(in the future)......Insha Allah....

Aki, Mira memohon kepada Allah supaya menempatkan Aki di kalangan orang yang beriman and I will always love you no matter where I go..I'll promised you that I will take a good care of Atok.....Insha Allah.

Cinta Sejati ----->Allah s.w.t ----->ibu bapa ----->?

Assalamualaikum,

               Hari ini Ain ingin kongsi satu pengalaman dan perasaan Ain dalam mencari cinta sejati , mengerti dan memahami cinta sejati yang sebenar-benarnya dan juga proses untuk mendapat cinta sejati.




               Sekarang Ain mengerti bahawa jika kita ingin mendapat cinta manusia, kita pertama sekali mesti  memberi dan menerapkan cinta kita terhadap pencetus ataupun pencipta cinta itu sendiri iaitu Allah s.w.t.
Baru Ain sedar, dengan mencintai Allah dari segala-galanya,selain dari keluarga(ibu bapa) kita, maka akan timbul satu perasaan(cinta) yang tidak boleh diluahkan oleh kata-kata. Dan ia merupakan satu perasaan yang hanya diri kita sendiri dan Allah s.w.t sahaja yang mengetahui.


               
                Ain sedar bahawa ,perasaan cinta Ain terhadap lelaki belum muncul atau timbul kerana Ain tahu cinta Ain terhadap Allah masih perlu di tambah dengan sepenuh raga. Ain kadang-kadang terfikir apa makna cinta kita terhadap manusia sekiranya cinta kita terhadap Allah hanya sedikit berbanding cinta kita terhadap manusia.




                Di sini, Ain bukan ingin mengatakan cinta yang wujud di antara lelaki dan perempuan (tanpa ikatan) itu salah atau tidak kerana Ain sendiri tidak mempunyai ilmu yang mencukupi...Tapi dengan adanya cinta daripada ikatan yang sah (direstui oleh Allah + IbuBapa).......bukankah cinta itu lebih bermakna????

P/S :-----Ain akan sambung lagi tentang kesedaran Ain mengenai cinta sejati.......Wassalam

Parents!!!!....The loved ones of our entire life

Assalamualaikum to all,                                
                               Ada sesiapa tahu siapa yang menyintai diri kita dalam diam selain Allah s.w.t?????? I knowwwwwwwwwwwww........MY LOVELY PARENTS!!!!!.......... ^_^.



                                  No matter what your parents did in the past years, try accepting them starting from now(past,present and future)........For instance,,,,like me,,back then my parents had this rules that was strictly should be followed by any means....   such as :-

                                (a) Tidak boleh keluar dari rumah tanpa keizinan mereka 

                                       ---->for safety cause sometimes even we plan on going out to get our mail,people

                                               can come out from nowhere to do all sort of things (especially little kids).

                                (b) Kalau keluar jalan2 mcm shopping complex ke or taman..it is a must to hold hands 

                                      -----> supaya kita hilang in a split second mcm nowadays where we hear kanak2

                                                 hilang in shopping complex.....maybe sometimes bukan salah parents if

                                                 budak2 yang nakal but parents must be alert at all times.

                                 (c) And etc..........

                           We as their kids try and accept for what they truly are because they accept us no matter how stubborn,annoying,childish and a bit pain in the @**  we are.....Sometimes they are a bit harsh toward us but deep in their heart..their love cannot be describe or show by words and actions..........

                          From my experience as a kid, Abah and Ummi  taught and preserve me with all the rules does help me in this present day cause it teaches me on how to protect myself from people that only wants to   hurt you.........what ever it is.....love and take a good care of your parents and always pray and recite a Doa for their well being and etc.........I can only say and advice people but me myself pun tak tahu what i do in the future   but I hope that my Iman and my love towards my parents will stay and remain until the last day of My life.......I surely hope in the future that I will be a responsible mother/parents to my kids ( after getting married to a responsible and lovely husband)..........Dear future husband I hope you and me will be a responsible and lovely parents to our kids in the future......just like my parents and yours too.......

Love you Abah and Ummi,,,,,doakan kakak/Yaya/Mira supaya menjadi seorang anak yg solehah ,isteri yang taat,bertanggungjawab dan sayang kepada suami(in the future),ibu yang bertanggungjawab terhadap anak2(in the future).....just like you guys :)

           

            Yours truly,

                                  Mira

2/7/2012

~ 2/7/2012 ~


Assalamualaikum ,  ^_^


       Apa khabar semua!!!!!....Ainul rasa this will be the first post that I may make it as a diary. Harini kelas  BM yang ainul attend pukul 8 am till 9.50 am tadi sangat-sangat lah best..The teacher itself is a good lecturer where he try to make the students to understand clearly what is important in making a good speech either it is for a presentation,event speech and so much more.....


Cikgu Suhaimi Razikin reminds me of my grandfather who has this full of knowledge and loves to share knowledge to others especially his grandchildren 's of course ^_^.....Hmmmmm..I miss my family although baru semalam balik dari rumah.......to many things happen in past few days......My Aki's brother was admitted to Ampang Hospital due to a non-stop bleeding due to incident where he fell down in a restaurant while waiting to buy his food..... and at 1.45 pm, my Abah told me that Aki Lop suffered a quick or minor heart attack while laying in the hospital bed....now my vision is in 360 'C mode where I see that things happen just in a split second without us noticing it........


I think that is all for today,..I'm terribly sorry if my writing is like a bowl with all the fruits mixed together without tasting the taste first or I would call it as "ROJAK"..hahahaha..Tq 4 the time you guys spend on reading and opening my not so up to date or "CIKAI" blog ^_^


                                                                   Waalaikumussalam.


                                                           

      

Realize!!!!!

Assalamualaikum,

                  Hari ni ainul just wanna share to viewers and readers out there. Minggu lepas adalah minggu yang ainul sangat bahagia sekali, thanx to my family and friends for the great weekend.


                  Minggu lepas juga, ada certain things happen without me realizing it.First and foremost, what had happened last week was that ainul berkenalan dengan so many people  from "Facebook" through replying each other's message. I think during that time,ainul just chat macam biasa,nothing unusual happen just that,that was the first time I realize I was chatting with people that i'm not usually chat with.
By chatting, I learn something's about guys and ladies and how they communicate,respond and more.




                   Other than that, my sister and I went out to buy things that girls usually shop
----->  bags,shoes, clothes and etc. And before I forgot, last week too my family and I went for a splendid dinner at Secret Recipe...nyum2x..hihihii




And today I realize that last week was one of the best moment in my 21 years of life
------->getting to know new people,the love our loved ones showed us .....and more.....




I realize that my new life have just begin at 21. Many things happened without me ,myself realizing it......Apa -apa pun....tuhan yang tahu segala-galanya....HE whos sets the setting of our life....it just take 4 us to realize n try to improve it.


I think that all from me.I'm not a perfect girl for a person  to like but I try to improve myself from time to time..Wassalam. 

"Aki"

To many things happen in a week..........

                First and foremost, I am happy that my Aki had been discharged from PPUM because


 lama-lama kat hospital pun xbagus untuk kesihatan lagi2 untuk orang yg kurang sihat dan


 berumur di mana immune system mereka amat rendah. Dari sini, saya mengucapkan ribuan


 terima kasih kepada all family members  and friends yang mendoakan kesejahteraan


  Aki....."Thank You So Much".


         But at 9.20p when I was about to pack my things to gombak campus, atok called out 


my name so loud which caught my attention immediately. As I enter Aki's room, I saw Aki vomiting continuously or non-stop and when the 5th time he vomits, came out the feeding tube......I was quite worried cause some of my family members where not around at that time. But after our family doctor check aki, he said this situation occurs due to his condition where Aki only laying down on the bed everyday from morning till night which maybe contribute to his dizziness which lead to vomiting.




              BUt today(17/4/2012)............what I heard from Abah is that Aki is able to eat a bit of porridge which gave me a sense of relief although we have to be very alert all the time.




              Itu saja yang saya ingin share bersama rakan2.......sory if my writing has some grammatical error or the sentences are a bit off......

Anyway, all I want to say is "I love u AKi"  

The Day! The new / fresh beginning

8 Feb 2012

>>>Kelas dah start (i think)

>>>Add n drop session

>>>meeting my lovable friends

>>>dan juga dikenali hari kelam kabut(quoted by me)...hahaha

have a nice day my friends

The Call ~Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

Why We Love

Why We Love

by FITTRI FAHMI

I struggle hard to forget the thing that had been bothering me all this time, the yearning for something that would never be achieved in the short term.

Along the process, I found myself pushing a heavy boulder uphill. It was difficult to let go of something when your heart doesn’t really want to. Just like you want to erase a carving on a solid rock. It’s possible as time goes by, but it’s detrimental to the rock itself. Or you want to remove a nail buried deep in a plank, at the end of the day you succeed to, but what you will have in your hand is a chunk of wood full of holes and rough surfaces here and there. That is why; you really need to think a lot first before carving something on the rock or hitting the nail into the wood because the repercussions is huge and will affect you for the rest of your life.

During this period, I receive my revelations. I started to see the reason why the feelings keep on attached to me. Being a teenager or to be more precise, a Muslim teenager in today’s world is not a path full of roses and fragrance. Every day in our life, we are exposed to the lifestyles and things that are not ours in the first place. Yet, we are told that it is BAD and we are NOT to follow it.

We put a plate filled with grilled fishes in front of a stray cat sitting on the floor. When it tries to reach it, we beat and kick it. Ironic.

People fell in love. In the first year or several month , it was beautiful. The feeling was unexplainable, it was like high on drugs. Second year, it transformed into feeling of attachment. The passion that was felt before lessen. It turns into something more to responsibility. Responsibility to finish what had been started. And during this phase, some relationships broke.

“Love begins with a smile, grows with an embrace, & ends with a teardrop, if it's not for the sake of Allah”

True enough. And the cycle goes on and on. Met new person, fell , and the same thing happens. Where’s the end of it?

That left me asking again , why do we need to have this desire?

Why we want to love and be loved?
Why we are sad when someone important in our live leave us alone when we needed them the most?
Why do we cry when someone which meant so much to us left us or die?
Why do people kept buying cosmetics products and spent thousands of dollars to look beautiful and young?
Why do we want the feeling that we felt , the people around us,and the life that we had to last forever?

Because WE ARE NOT CREATED to live in this world.
Our nature does not allow us to live in tranquility in this world.
We are created to long for something eternal. Something that will last forever. And we cannot find it here. This temporary world is not our true home, not the place where our nature will be satisfied.The only place that we will finally feel content is there. There’s no use of searching it here.
Don’t blame them for leaving you. Don’t blame them for not caring for you anymore. Don’t blame the products that you use or the workout that you do. But blame yourself.

If you lean against a branch and it broke and you fell , can you blame the tree?

If you put a vase at the corner of a table , it fell and shatters into pieces, can you blame the gravity?

No. Because it’s your fault. Your fault that you are depending upon something which is temporary. You put your dependence on people, you let people define how you feel and how you act . And that’s why you bear the consequences.

Depend on the One. The Eternal One. The All-Knowing One. The One that can do anything that He wants.

If you have friends, don’t expect them to fill your emptiness.

If you get married, don’t hope your spouse will fulfill all your needs.

If you ever fell in love, don’t act beyond His limits, because you know that He is the one who bestows the feeling and He can take it anytime.

If you think that you have a nice look and a pretty face, know that it came from Him.

If you are sad because someone left you, know that He sends peole in your life to hurt you so that you will grow, to teach you that you may know or to spend time with you for the rest of your life.

He is the Hills, and He is the Sea.

Everything flows from Him and goes back to Him.

- Artikel iluvislam.com

the feeling-set my world on fire

You say you need me then you don't,
I say I'll leave you but I won't,
You'll wanna be free but not alone.

So off you go just like before,
I hear you slam the taxi door,
Hope you find what you're looking for

I know We're doing wrong, yes I know I'm doing wrong,
But I can feel you in my heart, every time we part

You set my world on fire
I love you more every day
You can run
you can run but don't stay long
I love you more every day

You set my world on fire
And I don't care
I don't care what you say
I love you more
I love you more every day

There's still that smell you always wear
Just hangs like silence in the air
Holds cold when you're not even there

Nobody has to understand
We hold our hearts within our hands
Sometimes it's more than we can stand

When I'm doing wrong, yes I know I'm doing wrong,
'Cos I can feel you in my heart, every time we part

You set my world on fire
I love you more every day
You can run
you can run but don't stay long
I love you more every day

You set my world on fire
And I don't care what you say
You can run
but you know where you belong
I love you more every day

What more can I say
Set my world on fire
I don't care
I don't care what you say
I love you more
I love you more every day
I know I can't be wrong, yes I know I can't be wrong
'Cos I can feel you in my heart, every time we part
You set my world on fire
I love you more every day

You set my world on fire
yeah I don't care
I don't care what you say
I love you more
I love you more
I love you more every day

Hold My Heart -Sara Bareilles

I never meant to be the one to let you downIf anything, I thought I saw myself going firstI didn't know how to stick aroundHow to see anybody but me be getting hurt
I keep remembering the summer nightAnd the conversation breaking up the moodI didn't want to tell you you were rightLike the season changing, oh, I felt it too
Does anybody knowHow to hold my heartHow to hold my heart?'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go too soon
I want to tell you soBefore the sun goes darkHow to hold my heart'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go of you
I'm not the kind to try to tell you liesBut the truth is you've been hiding from it tooI see the end sneaking in behind your eyesSaying everything no words could ever do
Does anybody knowHow to hold my heartHow to hold my heart?'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go too soon
I want to tell you soBefore the sun goes darkHow to hold my heart'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go of you
Is anybody listening?'Cause I'm cryingIs anybody listening?
Does anybody knowHow to hold my heartHow to hold my heart?'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go too soon
I want to tell you soBefore the sun goes darkHow to hold my heart'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go of you
Does anybody knowHow to hold my heartHow to hold my heart?'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go too soon
I want to tell you soBefore the sun goes darkHow to hold my heart'Cause I don't wanna let go, let go, let goI don't wanna let go, let go of you
I don't wanna let go