The Call ~Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

Why We Love

Why We Love

by FITTRI FAHMI

I struggle hard to forget the thing that had been bothering me all this time, the yearning for something that would never be achieved in the short term.

Along the process, I found myself pushing a heavy boulder uphill. It was difficult to let go of something when your heart doesn’t really want to. Just like you want to erase a carving on a solid rock. It’s possible as time goes by, but it’s detrimental to the rock itself. Or you want to remove a nail buried deep in a plank, at the end of the day you succeed to, but what you will have in your hand is a chunk of wood full of holes and rough surfaces here and there. That is why; you really need to think a lot first before carving something on the rock or hitting the nail into the wood because the repercussions is huge and will affect you for the rest of your life.

During this period, I receive my revelations. I started to see the reason why the feelings keep on attached to me. Being a teenager or to be more precise, a Muslim teenager in today’s world is not a path full of roses and fragrance. Every day in our life, we are exposed to the lifestyles and things that are not ours in the first place. Yet, we are told that it is BAD and we are NOT to follow it.

We put a plate filled with grilled fishes in front of a stray cat sitting on the floor. When it tries to reach it, we beat and kick it. Ironic.

People fell in love. In the first year or several month , it was beautiful. The feeling was unexplainable, it was like high on drugs. Second year, it transformed into feeling of attachment. The passion that was felt before lessen. It turns into something more to responsibility. Responsibility to finish what had been started. And during this phase, some relationships broke.

“Love begins with a smile, grows with an embrace, & ends with a teardrop, if it's not for the sake of Allah”

True enough. And the cycle goes on and on. Met new person, fell , and the same thing happens. Where’s the end of it?

That left me asking again , why do we need to have this desire?

Why we want to love and be loved?
Why we are sad when someone important in our live leave us alone when we needed them the most?
Why do we cry when someone which meant so much to us left us or die?
Why do people kept buying cosmetics products and spent thousands of dollars to look beautiful and young?
Why do we want the feeling that we felt , the people around us,and the life that we had to last forever?

Because WE ARE NOT CREATED to live in this world.
Our nature does not allow us to live in tranquility in this world.
We are created to long for something eternal. Something that will last forever. And we cannot find it here. This temporary world is not our true home, not the place where our nature will be satisfied.The only place that we will finally feel content is there. There’s no use of searching it here.
Don’t blame them for leaving you. Don’t blame them for not caring for you anymore. Don’t blame the products that you use or the workout that you do. But blame yourself.

If you lean against a branch and it broke and you fell , can you blame the tree?

If you put a vase at the corner of a table , it fell and shatters into pieces, can you blame the gravity?

No. Because it’s your fault. Your fault that you are depending upon something which is temporary. You put your dependence on people, you let people define how you feel and how you act . And that’s why you bear the consequences.

Depend on the One. The Eternal One. The All-Knowing One. The One that can do anything that He wants.

If you have friends, don’t expect them to fill your emptiness.

If you get married, don’t hope your spouse will fulfill all your needs.

If you ever fell in love, don’t act beyond His limits, because you know that He is the one who bestows the feeling and He can take it anytime.

If you think that you have a nice look and a pretty face, know that it came from Him.

If you are sad because someone left you, know that He sends peole in your life to hurt you so that you will grow, to teach you that you may know or to spend time with you for the rest of your life.

He is the Hills, and He is the Sea.

Everything flows from Him and goes back to Him.

- Artikel iluvislam.com

the feeling-set my world on fire

You say you need me then you don't,
I say I'll leave you but I won't,
You'll wanna be free but not alone.

So off you go just like before,
I hear you slam the taxi door,
Hope you find what you're looking for

I know We're doing wrong, yes I know I'm doing wrong,
But I can feel you in my heart, every time we part

You set my world on fire
I love you more every day
You can run
you can run but don't stay long
I love you more every day

You set my world on fire
And I don't care
I don't care what you say
I love you more
I love you more every day

There's still that smell you always wear
Just hangs like silence in the air
Holds cold when you're not even there

Nobody has to understand
We hold our hearts within our hands
Sometimes it's more than we can stand

When I'm doing wrong, yes I know I'm doing wrong,
'Cos I can feel you in my heart, every time we part

You set my world on fire
I love you more every day
You can run
you can run but don't stay long
I love you more every day

You set my world on fire
And I don't care what you say
You can run
but you know where you belong
I love you more every day

What more can I say
Set my world on fire
I don't care
I don't care what you say
I love you more
I love you more every day
I know I can't be wrong, yes I know I can't be wrong
'Cos I can feel you in my heart, every time we part
You set my world on fire
I love you more every day

You set my world on fire
yeah I don't care
I don't care what you say
I love you more
I love you more
I love you more every day

Hold My Heart -Sara Bareilles

I never meant to be the one to let you downIf anything, I thought I saw myself going firstI didn't know how to stick aroundHow to see anybody but me be getting hurt
I keep remembering the summer nightAnd the conversation breaking up the moodI didn't want to tell you you were rightLike the season changing, oh, I felt it too
Does anybody knowHow to hold my heartHow to hold my heart?'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go too soon
I want to tell you soBefore the sun goes darkHow to hold my heart'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go of you
I'm not the kind to try to tell you liesBut the truth is you've been hiding from it tooI see the end sneaking in behind your eyesSaying everything no words could ever do
Does anybody knowHow to hold my heartHow to hold my heart?'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go too soon
I want to tell you soBefore the sun goes darkHow to hold my heart'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go of you
Is anybody listening?'Cause I'm cryingIs anybody listening?
Does anybody knowHow to hold my heartHow to hold my heart?'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go too soon
I want to tell you soBefore the sun goes darkHow to hold my heart'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go of you
Does anybody knowHow to hold my heartHow to hold my heart?'Cause I don't wanna let goLet go, let go too soon
I want to tell you soBefore the sun goes darkHow to hold my heart'Cause I don't wanna let go, let go, let goI don't wanna let go, let go of you
I don't wanna let go