Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Behind the reason WHY????
Assalamualaikum,
Di hari yang mulia ini,kita mulakan hari kita dengan bismillah.This is because by reciting the word bismillah during the early morning, it can enhance someone's day with a nice and breezy day..I'll promised you that ^_^.
So as for today, ainul nak kongsi the feeling of losing someone who had colored up your life for about 21 years of life(my life). Maybe some of you face this kind of feeling of losing someone that you very much care and love about such as your family members,your friends ,your partners and more. And you must be wondering why does this happen to me? Why am I being test by Allah? Why the person that is so close to me?
Well as for me, tahun ini adalah tahun yang ainul sedih sekali....The reason behind my sadness is I've lost one of the man that I love dearly and he had been my backbone since I was young little girl till my 21 years of life which was my grandfather from my father's side "AKI ". Since his death which happen on 10 October 2012, I turned from being a girl which gives smiles easily to people, giggly and sometimes talkative to certain people, turned on becoming a more quiet, unfriendly I guess towards certain people.My apologies to my family members and friends which been offended by my attitudes or action.
Do you know what does it felt losing someone you cared and love?Till this day, I felt the loneliness of losing someone..you know why? Usually on Thursday after I've finished my Introduction to Fiqh class, I will the happiest person on earth cause I'm about to meet my family back home although I lived in Petaling Jaya, by living in my current location (Gombak).....I still miss them(mcm tinggal kat Kelantan nun jauh sana je).The first person that ainul nak sangat2 jumpa is my Aki...because he will the happiest person to see me in front of the door (Ya Allah, I miss those moments).....And now,the wheels had turned in other direction...
Sometimes ainul rasa macam tak sabar nak balik rumah nak jumpa Aki but after realizing in front of the door of my house, I realize that I will be walking straight up to Aki's room to go and see him but he is nowhere around.Instantly I realize that he had left me hangin on my own to feet( I'm thankful that my family members and friends is always there for me but without my Aki by my side, I felt the emptiness in my heart..And that time I will tend to question why does Allah took my grandfather away from so fast?Why not me instead of him? Then I come to my senses on the reason why do Allah take away my Aki away from me...Allah tidak akan membebankan hambanya sekira hambanya tidak mempunyai kekuatan untuk menghadapi cabaran yang diberi. ...Allah telah mengambil roh Aki dan mengembalikan Aki kepadaNya adalah untuk menghilangkan segala penderitaan yang Aki hadapi.....
Ya Allah, terima kasih mengurniakan seorang hambaMu yang sangat aku kagumi sifat-sifat nya penyayang,family man, peacemaker, tegas,cekal, great supporter, and never differentiated his loved between his family members...I still remember when he is still with us back then, Aki selalu ajak ainul berbual about the future life that I will be facing later....Aki ada cakap, Aki berharap that I will take a good care of my family and he once said that he will like to see me graduate,work and also getting married to the one person who will love me altogether with my flaws and more....Yang paling lawak sekali , Aki pernah tanye ainul where is my husband and the two kids...I'm shocked at first but I presume it as a joke which I then later told him the truth that i'm not yet married to anyone and having kids...He later said, In sha Allah, you will discover your true prince charming same as in the storybooks....Aminnn...I hope so In Sha Allah......
To my future husband, I hope u will accept my flaws cause I'm just a normal human being....I hope you will take a good care of yourself and your family which than transmit on taking a good care of our family(in the future)......Insha Allah....
Aki, Mira memohon kepada Allah supaya menempatkan Aki di kalangan orang yang beriman and I will always love you no matter where I go..I'll promised you that I will take a good care of Atok.....Insha Allah.
Di hari yang mulia ini,kita mulakan hari kita dengan bismillah.This is because by reciting the word bismillah during the early morning, it can enhance someone's day with a nice and breezy day..I'll promised you that ^_^.
So as for today, ainul nak kongsi the feeling of losing someone who had colored up your life for about 21 years of life(my life). Maybe some of you face this kind of feeling of losing someone that you very much care and love about such as your family members,your friends ,your partners and more. And you must be wondering why does this happen to me? Why am I being test by Allah? Why the person that is so close to me?
Well as for me, tahun ini adalah tahun yang ainul sedih sekali....The reason behind my sadness is I've lost one of the man that I love dearly and he had been my backbone since I was young little girl till my 21 years of life which was my grandfather from my father's side "AKI ". Since his death which happen on 10 October 2012, I turned from being a girl which gives smiles easily to people, giggly and sometimes talkative to certain people, turned on becoming a more quiet, unfriendly I guess towards certain people.My apologies to my family members and friends which been offended by my attitudes or action.
Do you know what does it felt losing someone you cared and love?Till this day, I felt the loneliness of losing someone..you know why? Usually on Thursday after I've finished my Introduction to Fiqh class, I will the happiest person on earth cause I'm about to meet my family back home although I lived in Petaling Jaya, by living in my current location (Gombak).....I still miss them(mcm tinggal kat Kelantan nun jauh sana je).The first person that ainul nak sangat2 jumpa is my Aki...because he will the happiest person to see me in front of the door (Ya Allah, I miss those moments).....And now,the wheels had turned in other direction...
Sometimes ainul rasa macam tak sabar nak balik rumah nak jumpa Aki but after realizing in front of the door of my house, I realize that I will be walking straight up to Aki's room to go and see him but he is nowhere around.Instantly I realize that he had left me hangin on my own to feet( I'm thankful that my family members and friends is always there for me but without my Aki by my side, I felt the emptiness in my heart..And that time I will tend to question why does Allah took my grandfather away from so fast?Why not me instead of him? Then I come to my senses on the reason why do Allah take away my Aki away from me...Allah tidak akan membebankan hambanya sekira hambanya tidak mempunyai kekuatan untuk menghadapi cabaran yang diberi. ...Allah telah mengambil roh Aki dan mengembalikan Aki kepadaNya adalah untuk menghilangkan segala penderitaan yang Aki hadapi.....
Ya Allah, terima kasih mengurniakan seorang hambaMu yang sangat aku kagumi sifat-sifat nya penyayang,family man, peacemaker, tegas,cekal, great supporter, and never differentiated his loved between his family members...I still remember when he is still with us back then, Aki selalu ajak ainul berbual about the future life that I will be facing later....Aki ada cakap, Aki berharap that I will take a good care of my family and he once said that he will like to see me graduate,work and also getting married to the one person who will love me altogether with my flaws and more....Yang paling lawak sekali , Aki pernah tanye ainul where is my husband and the two kids...I'm shocked at first but I presume it as a joke which I then later told him the truth that i'm not yet married to anyone and having kids...He later said, In sha Allah, you will discover your true prince charming same as in the storybooks....Aminnn...I hope so In Sha Allah......
To my future husband, I hope u will accept my flaws cause I'm just a normal human being....I hope you will take a good care of yourself and your family which than transmit on taking a good care of our family(in the future)......Insha Allah....
Monday, July 30, 2012
Cinta Sejati ----->Allah s.w.t ----->ibu bapa ----->?
Assalamualaikum,
Hari ini Ain ingin kongsi satu pengalaman dan perasaan Ain dalam mencari cinta sejati , mengerti dan memahami cinta sejati yang sebenar-benarnya dan juga proses untuk mendapat cinta sejati.
Sekarang Ain mengerti bahawa jika kita ingin mendapat cinta manusia, kita pertama sekali mesti memberi dan menerapkan cinta kita terhadap pencetus ataupun pencipta cinta itu sendiri iaitu Allah s.w.t.
Baru Ain sedar, dengan mencintai Allah dari segala-galanya,selain dari keluarga(ibu bapa) kita, maka akan timbul satu perasaan(cinta) yang tidak boleh diluahkan oleh kata-kata. Dan ia merupakan satu perasaan yang hanya diri kita sendiri dan Allah s.w.t sahaja yang mengetahui.
Ain sedar bahawa ,perasaan cinta Ain terhadap lelaki belum muncul atau timbul kerana Ain tahu cinta Ain terhadap Allah masih perlu di tambah dengan sepenuh raga. Ain kadang-kadang terfikir apa makna cinta kita terhadap manusia sekiranya cinta kita terhadap Allah hanya sedikit berbanding cinta kita terhadap manusia.
Di sini, Ain bukan ingin mengatakan cinta yang wujud di antara lelaki dan perempuan (tanpa ikatan) itu salah atau tidak kerana Ain sendiri tidak mempunyai ilmu yang mencukupi...Tapi dengan adanya cinta daripada ikatan yang sah (direstui oleh Allah + IbuBapa).......bukankah cinta itu lebih bermakna????
P/S :-----Ain akan sambung lagi tentang kesedaran Ain mengenai cinta sejati.......Wassalam
Hari ini Ain ingin kongsi satu pengalaman dan perasaan Ain dalam mencari cinta sejati , mengerti dan memahami cinta sejati yang sebenar-benarnya dan juga proses untuk mendapat cinta sejati.
Sekarang Ain mengerti bahawa jika kita ingin mendapat cinta manusia, kita pertama sekali mesti memberi dan menerapkan cinta kita terhadap pencetus ataupun pencipta cinta itu sendiri iaitu Allah s.w.t.
Baru Ain sedar, dengan mencintai Allah dari segala-galanya,selain dari keluarga(ibu bapa) kita, maka akan timbul satu perasaan(cinta) yang tidak boleh diluahkan oleh kata-kata. Dan ia merupakan satu perasaan yang hanya diri kita sendiri dan Allah s.w.t sahaja yang mengetahui.
Ain sedar bahawa ,perasaan cinta Ain terhadap lelaki belum muncul atau timbul kerana Ain tahu cinta Ain terhadap Allah masih perlu di tambah dengan sepenuh raga. Ain kadang-kadang terfikir apa makna cinta kita terhadap manusia sekiranya cinta kita terhadap Allah hanya sedikit berbanding cinta kita terhadap manusia.
Di sini, Ain bukan ingin mengatakan cinta yang wujud di antara lelaki dan perempuan (tanpa ikatan) itu salah atau tidak kerana Ain sendiri tidak mempunyai ilmu yang mencukupi...Tapi dengan adanya cinta daripada ikatan yang sah (direstui oleh Allah + IbuBapa).......bukankah cinta itu lebih bermakna????
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Parents!!!!....The loved ones of our entire life
Assalamualaikum to all,
Ada sesiapa tahu siapa yang menyintai diri kita dalam diam selain Allah s.w.t?????? I knowwwwwwwwwwwww........MY LOVELY PARENTS!!!!!.......... ^_^.
No matter what your parents did in the past years, try accepting them starting from now(past,present and future)........For instance,,,,like me,,back then my parents had this rules that was strictly should be followed by any means.... such as :-
Yours truly,
Ada sesiapa tahu siapa yang menyintai diri kita dalam diam selain Allah s.w.t?????? I knowwwwwwwwwwwww........MY LOVELY PARENTS!!!!!.......... ^_^.
No matter what your parents did in the past years, try accepting them starting from now(past,present and future)........For instance,,,,like me,,back then my parents had this rules that was strictly should be followed by any means.... such as :-
(a) Tidak boleh keluar dari rumah tanpa keizinan mereka
---->for safety cause sometimes even we plan on going out to get our mail,people
can come out from nowhere to do all sort of things (especially little kids).
(b) Kalau keluar jalan2 mcm shopping complex ke or taman..it is a must to hold hands
-----> supaya kita hilang in a split second mcm nowadays where we hear kanak2
hilang in shopping complex.....maybe sometimes bukan salah parents if
budak2 yang nakal but parents must be alert at all times.
(c) And etc..........
We as their kids try and accept for what they truly are because they accept us no matter how stubborn,annoying,childish and a bit pain in the @** we are.....Sometimes they are a bit harsh toward us but deep in their heart..their love cannot be describe or show by words and actions..........
From my experience as a kid, Abah and Ummi taught and preserve me with all the rules does help me in this present day cause it teaches me on how to protect myself from people that only wants to hurt you.........what ever it is.....love and take a good care of your parents and always pray and recite a Doa for their well being and etc.........I can only say and advice people but me myself pun tak tahu what i do in the future but I hope that my Iman and my love towards my parents will stay and remain until the last day of My life.......I surely hope in the future that I will be a responsible mother/parents to my kids ( after getting married to a responsible and lovely husband)..........Dear future husband I hope you and me will be a responsible and lovely parents to our kids in the future......just like my parents and yours too.......
Love you Abah and Ummi,,,,,doakan kakak/Yaya/Mira supaya menjadi seorang anak yg solehah ,isteri yang taat,bertanggungjawab dan sayang kepada suami(in the future),ibu yang bertanggungjawab terhadap anak2(in the future).....just like you guys :)
Mira
Sunday, July 1, 2012
2/7/2012
~ 2/7/2012 ~
Assalamualaikum , ^_^
Apa khabar semua!!!!!....Ainul rasa this will be the first post that I may make it as a diary. Harini kelas BM yang ainul attend pukul 8 am till 9.50 am tadi sangat-sangat lah best..The teacher itself is a good lecturer where he try to make the students to understand clearly what is important in making a good speech either it is for a presentation,event speech and so much more.....
Cikgu Suhaimi Razikin reminds me of my grandfather who has this full of knowledge and loves to share knowledge to others especially his grandchildren 's of course ^_^.....Hmmmmm..I miss my family although baru semalam balik dari rumah.......to many things happen in past few days......My Aki's brother was admitted to Ampang Hospital due to a non-stop bleeding due to incident where he fell down in a restaurant while waiting to buy his food..... and at 1.45 pm, my Abah told me that Aki Lop suffered a quick or minor heart attack while laying in the hospital bed....now my vision is in 360 'C mode where I see that things happen just in a split second without us noticing it........
I think that is all for today,..I'm terribly sorry if my writing is like a bowl with all the fruits mixed together without tasting the taste first or I would call it as "ROJAK"..hahahaha..Tq 4 the time you guys spend on reading and opening my not so up to date or "CIKAI" blog ^_^
Waalaikumussalam.
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Assalamualaikum , ^_^
Apa khabar semua!!!!!....Ainul rasa this will be the first post that I may make it as a diary. Harini kelas BM yang ainul attend pukul 8 am till 9.50 am tadi sangat-sangat lah best..The teacher itself is a good lecturer where he try to make the students to understand clearly what is important in making a good speech either it is for a presentation,event speech and so much more.....
Cikgu Suhaimi Razikin reminds me of my grandfather who has this full of knowledge and loves to share knowledge to others especially his grandchildren 's of course ^_^.....Hmmmmm..I miss my family although baru semalam balik dari rumah.......to many things happen in past few days......My Aki's brother was admitted to Ampang Hospital due to a non-stop bleeding due to incident where he fell down in a restaurant while waiting to buy his food..... and at 1.45 pm, my Abah told me that Aki Lop suffered a quick or minor heart attack while laying in the hospital bed....now my vision is in 360 'C mode where I see that things happen just in a split second without us noticing it........
I think that is all for today,..I'm terribly sorry if my writing is like a bowl with all the fruits mixed together without tasting the taste first or I would call it as "ROJAK"..hahahaha..Tq 4 the time you guys spend on reading and opening my not so up to date or "CIKAI" blog ^_^
Waalaikumussalam.
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Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Realize!!!!!
Assalamualaikum,
Hari ni ainul just wanna share to viewers and readers out there. Minggu lepas adalah minggu yang ainul sangat bahagia sekali, thanx to my family and friends for the great weekend.
Minggu lepas juga, ada certain things happen without me realizing it.First and foremost, what had happened last week was that ainul berkenalan dengan so many people from "Facebook" through replying each other's message. I think during that time,ainul just chat macam biasa,nothing unusual happen just that,that was the first time I realize I was chatting with people that i'm not usually chat with.
By chatting, I learn something's about guys and ladies and how they communicate,respond and more.
Other than that, my sister and I went out to buy things that girls usually shop
-----> bags,shoes, clothes and etc. And before I forgot, last week too my family and I went for a splendid dinner at Secret Recipe...nyum2x..hihihii
And today I realize that last week was one of the best moment in my 21 years of life
------->getting to know new people,the love our loved ones showed us .....and more.....
I realize that my new life have just begin at 21. Many things happened without me ,myself realizing it......Apa -apa pun....tuhan yang tahu segala-galanya....HE whos sets the setting of our life....it just take 4 us to realize n try to improve it.
I think that all from me.I'm not a perfect girl for a person to like but I try to improve myself from time to time..Wassalam.
Hari ni ainul just wanna share to viewers and readers out there. Minggu lepas adalah minggu yang ainul sangat bahagia sekali, thanx to my family and friends for the great weekend.
Minggu lepas juga, ada certain things happen without me realizing it.First and foremost, what had happened last week was that ainul berkenalan dengan so many people from "Facebook" through replying each other's message. I think during that time,ainul just chat macam biasa,nothing unusual happen just that,that was the first time I realize I was chatting with people that i'm not usually chat with.
By chatting, I learn something's about guys and ladies and how they communicate,respond and more.
Other than that, my sister and I went out to buy things that girls usually shop
-----> bags,shoes, clothes and etc. And before I forgot, last week too my family and I went for a splendid dinner at Secret Recipe...nyum2x..hihihii
And today I realize that last week was one of the best moment in my 21 years of life
------->getting to know new people,the love our loved ones showed us .....and more.....
I realize that my new life have just begin at 21. Many things happened without me ,myself realizing it......Apa -apa pun....tuhan yang tahu segala-galanya....HE whos sets the setting of our life....it just take 4 us to realize n try to improve it.
I think that all from me.I'm not a perfect girl for a person to like but I try to improve myself from time to time..Wassalam.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
"Aki"
To many things happen in a week..........
First and foremost, I am happy that my Aki had been discharged from PPUM because
lama-lama kat hospital pun xbagus untuk kesihatan lagi2 untuk orang yg kurang sihat dan
berumur di mana immune system mereka amat rendah. Dari sini, saya mengucapkan ribuan
terima kasih kepada all family members and friends yang mendoakan kesejahteraan
Aki....."Thank You So Much".
But at 9.20p when I was about to pack my things to gombak campus, atok called out
my name so loud which caught my attention immediately. As I enter Aki's room, I saw Aki vomiting continuously or non-stop and when the 5th time he vomits, came out the feeding tube......I was quite worried cause some of my family members where not around at that time. But after our family doctor check aki, he said this situation occurs due to his condition where Aki only laying down on the bed everyday from morning till night which maybe contribute to his dizziness which lead to vomiting.
BUt today(17/4/2012)............what I heard from Abah is that Aki is able to eat a bit of porridge which gave me a sense of relief although we have to be very alert all the time.
Itu saja yang saya ingin share bersama rakan2.......sory if my writing has some grammatical error or the sentences are a bit off......
Anyway, all I want to say is "I love u AKi"
First and foremost, I am happy that my Aki had been discharged from PPUM because
lama-lama kat hospital pun xbagus untuk kesihatan lagi2 untuk orang yg kurang sihat dan
berumur di mana immune system mereka amat rendah. Dari sini, saya mengucapkan ribuan
terima kasih kepada all family members and friends yang mendoakan kesejahteraan
Aki....."Thank You So Much".
But at 9.20p when I was about to pack my things to gombak campus, atok called out
my name so loud which caught my attention immediately. As I enter Aki's room, I saw Aki vomiting continuously or non-stop and when the 5th time he vomits, came out the feeding tube......I was quite worried cause some of my family members where not around at that time. But after our family doctor check aki, he said this situation occurs due to his condition where Aki only laying down on the bed everyday from morning till night which maybe contribute to his dizziness which lead to vomiting.
BUt today(17/4/2012)............what I heard from Abah is that Aki is able to eat a bit of porridge which gave me a sense of relief although we have to be very alert all the time.
Itu saja yang saya ingin share bersama rakan2.......sory if my writing has some grammatical error or the sentences are a bit off......
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